Bad Dream

I had a horrid dream, about hubby dying, leaving pregnant me...

It woke me up, terrified. I looked over my hubby snoring so soundly beside me. I pray to Allah, to let us live a long properous life together. I can't shake that bad feeling away. It felt so real and scary. I cried so hard, my nose got blocked, so I had to sit up to calm myself down. I know it's just a dream now, but the thought of something happen to my husband, terrifies me. I love this man so much, I can't even bear the thought of losing him.

Ya Allah, this must be because I took a nap during maghrib just now.

Ya Allah,
Ampunkan lah dosa-dosa kami,
Panjangkan lah umur kami,
Kuatkan lah iman kami,
Ringankan lah beban kami,
Tabahkan lah hati kami,
Bukakan lah jalan yang luas untuk ke Jannah buat kami,
Jauhkan lah azab neraka dari kami,
Hanya kepadaMu ku pohon,
Sesungguhnya Engkau maha Pengasih dan Pengampun.
Amin...

Time to get back to sleep. Nightmares sure are tiring... 😑

NEED NEW CLOTHES!

Baby's getting bigger, and clothes are getting snugger and tighter.

Need to go shopping!

But is it worth it?

It'll last 2 months plus je..?

*i hate pants now. Need to pee every 30mins... >.<

Braxton Hicks?

Oh man...

Although, I think I had one before a few days ago, but this one made me sick already. It's like having leg cramps, but below your abdominal area. It hurts every 30 to 40 mins...

Hubby thought we should go to the docs, but I thought I needed to do a lil research about it before spending RM50 consultation fee just to know, "IT'S NORMAL".

Apparently, I googled a forum and asked a friend, that it IS normal, and I'm to expect more coming soon. I needed to walk around or lay on my side to ease it, and drink alot of water. Unless it happens for too long or too frequent, with discharges, then, to the docs we go. I still got another 2 weeks before my next doc appointment. So, I'll wait till then.

I stayed home from work today, the exhaustion of bearing the pain made me sleep half day.

I also noted that to bear with this pain in the future, I need to exercise more, because it's only gonna get stronger. Oh boy. What a way to welcome 3rd trimester, right?

But Alhamdulillah, baby movement activity is frequent, so, I assume he's healthy and happy, and just can't wait to come out.

Ibu and Ayah can't wait for you too, sayang. :)

MerMummy

Dulu cita-cita nak jadi mermaid... at long last, the perfect mermaid tail..

for my most favourite place in the world : The BED!! 

Ayah dan Ibu

My hubby popped the question (?).

"Eh, so, tahun ni, kita boleh celebrate mother's and father's day la kan?"

Yes, cayang.. Yes, we can... :)

*2 more months to go*

Let's Start a Family

I had a short chat with hubby the other night. Goes something like this...

Puteri

Cayang, can I ask you something

(i would always start our convo with this to make sure he's paying attention)

Hubby

yeah?

Puteri

Do you get jealous sometimes, at friends who has complete (not divorced) parents?

Hubby

I do.

Puteri

really?

Hubby

yeah. do you?

Puteri

I do. I always wondered what would it be like to have dinner with my ayah and ibu sri, at home, home cooked meals...

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I wouldn't call my family (or his) broken. Just not compatible. Some are just so fortunate to feel belong in a family still attached to each other. We didn't get to experience that. I didn't get to experience that my whole life.

but not that I'm fretting over the past.

this got me to realized, we need to love and stick to each other, for the sake of our child(ren).
I wanna be a complete family, forever. I beg for this. I'll fight for this. In syaa Allah...

That slight bump

Just wanna record,

4th January 2017
11:28pm

Your dad felt your kicks for the first time. :)
His reaction? "Damn...."

I love you both very much. <3 p="">