why now la??

now Mika dah 8 bulan..

tetiba kan..

hati kuat je gendang2,

"best nya, bila next dapat baby girl? 

boleh pakai bows and dresses."

*snap to reality*

what the heck was that? 

another baby so soon for me?

trauma beranak pun tak habis lg.

tak yah cerita lah trauma topet tengok aku bersalin.

__________________________________________

maybe when Mika's a lil older lah.

Maybe 3 yo, or 13?

#familyplanning

#betterchildhood

#betterparenting

#bestlife

In my heart

Almost every day, when I look at my son, smiling and laughing, I thought, how lucky my son is, to have a family, people who care for him all around, to receive unconditional love. And I unconsciously compared him to babies who are tortured, abused, assaulted sexually and mentally, at a very young age before 1 year old.

I found myself teary and filled with guilt and anger, upon comparing my son to those unfortunate babies. I also question, will they ever heal if they survive such torture? will they be permanently affected by whatever scars they got?

To look at my son's smiling face, prying for attention, I imagine, what if my son were born from somebody else, with such abusive background? Where he'll get spanks instead of cuddles for crying? Where he'll be silenced instead of being fed for being hungry? Where he'll be ignored instead of played with, when learning to sit, stand or crawl?

I hug my son, praying and thanking Allah, for blessing us with him in our family. And pray that all the babies, toddlers, children and teenagers to be equally blessed with love from their family. Child abuse needs to end.

Mummy instinct gets stronger every day.

Braxton Hicks?

Oh man...

Although, I think I had one before a few days ago, but this one made me sick already. It's like having leg cramps, but below your abdominal area. It hurts every 30 to 40 mins...

Hubby thought we should go to the docs, but I thought I needed to do a lil research about it before spending RM50 consultation fee just to know, "IT'S NORMAL".

Apparently, I googled a forum and asked a friend, that it IS normal, and I'm to expect more coming soon. I needed to walk around or lay on my side to ease it, and drink alot of water. Unless it happens for too long or too frequent, with discharges, then, to the docs we go. I still got another 2 weeks before my next doc appointment. So, I'll wait till then.

I stayed home from work today, the exhaustion of bearing the pain made me sleep half day.

I also noted that to bear with this pain in the future, I need to exercise more, because it's only gonna get stronger. Oh boy. What a way to welcome 3rd trimester, right?

But Alhamdulillah, baby movement activity is frequent, so, I assume he's healthy and happy, and just can't wait to come out.

Ibu and Ayah can't wait for you too, sayang. :)

The Orange Incident

Back in the days when my parents were in love...
Probably 1986 or 87? or 89?

At the train station and the train arrived, having a couple of minutes before leaving.

Ibu Sri

Think should get something to munch on the train.

Ayah

I can drop at the convenient shop there before the train leave.

What would you like?

Ibu Sri

Probably should get some fruits and drinks.

Ayah

Sure

*walks to the convenient shop*

*came back and my mom can only snicker at what my dad bought.*

Ayah

What?

Ibu Sri

Seriously? You bought oranges (fruit) and orange juice?

Ayah

*derp*

p.s: proof that i happened to inherit my dad's derpiness~

Dear Allah,

Despite my crude behaviour in life, i am thankful for granting me many people in my life..

I am thankful for my mother, whom gave birth to me.. regardless the distance we have between us, we are never separated in heart. Never lose faith in me, always believe i can achieve many things (even the smallest things counts for her).

I am thankful for my father, always giving me a pathway towards the biggest picture in life. Always giving me the 2nd chance thought i don't deserve. And is always there to help. Sometimes, to teach a child to find, is to play 'Hide and Seek'. Nothing is given in the real world, except to expected to be taken back.

I am thankful for my fiancee, that 1st stranger to accept me as who i am. Always, and ALWAYS there whenever i'm down, whenever i'm at my lowest, most useless state. Knowing how stubborn, how anxious and how thoughtless i can be at most times. Notices the tasteless changes in me. You still stuck a ring on me.

I am thankful for my siblings, who are always my little rays of sunshine. My trouble makers. My migraine enhancements. My mud puddles. Always a grim, never a bore. Those lil baby talk we had, turns to meaningful chats. Everything you guys do, made me reminisce and smile. Never fail.

I am thankful for my best friends, my vitamins in life. Supports me to almost everything i do. Listens and listen good. Never sigh to my woes, never scream to my tantrums. Even after knowing that i'm not they type to contact all the time, never to forget me, as i never forget them, EVER! Always so important, so true.

So, Please dear Allah,

Hear my prayers, for you are the Most Loving and Most Caring, Most Forgiving.

Give love and protection to these love ones of my life. Give support and justice to their soul. Forgive their sins and banish their fears. Purify their heart from evil and stray them from hell fire, for they are precious to me on earth. Amin...

Momma Bad Ass

look who i found loitering on FB!! It's my mom's high school picture!!

BWAHAHAHA!! I need to thank her friends for posting this.

She does looked like a delinquent bad ass! I like that!

p.s: That fierce look really suit her as a hockey player..

Really?

how my parents reacted the first time they met my boyfriend.

how rude... im decent enough ok..

lol

p.s: just finished watching Lovely Complex... a simple yet heartwarming anime.. LOVE!!

UiTM 78th Convocation Ceremony

congrats to all of us... we made it to the end... heheh..

thus, our friendship will never end... 

let us embrace what we've learned, taught, studied, 

day and night.. 3 years thru...

thank you ibu sri n ayah for being there for me..

also not forgetting uncle haidil...

i love you guys... <3 p="">

Final Results

right after mr.TH reminded me to inform him of my final results, i received an email...

it was my result... (duhh)

Alhamdulillah.

i manage to pass with good results...

with this, im an official degree graduate!!

woohoo!!

been studying since 1992 till 2012

gosh.. twenty years... 

life is about education, isnt it...?

now, i can look for a job to support self and family..

the eldest got to do what an eldest got to do... ;)

for this, (cliche drum roll)

i wud like to thank family, friends, boyfriend, best friends  those strangers with good will, classmates, teachers, lecturers, and all... <3 br="">





p.s: Masters? not anytime soon.. will be, in syaa allah.. :)
p.s.s: its kinda sad to leave the student life, isnt it?

biological

sometimes, when people ask me,

which is ur real mother?

or

is Aliah ur real mother?

i automatically thinks that they are either blind or stupid~

just by looking at me, they shud know la... adoii~~

p.s: my mom (Aliah) introduced me to her friend, on fine day, and he reply, "oh really, i can see the resemblance," with a straight face... and we knew, THAT wasnt sarcasm~

p.s.s: he was friendly tho, so... forgiven~~

p.s.s.s: I LOVE BOTH OF EM EQUALLY!!!!!

Back from Singapore

Raya in Singapore?
Stupendous!! ;p

miss my mom so bad...
been sticking to her like GLUE!!

• also, happy to see the rest of my singaporean loves...
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• Alhamdulillah get to meet my lovies Lee&Dee
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• Syukur to Allah, my cousie Bobo has a baby gurl... <3 li="li" nbsp="nbsp">
• 
  
• At the age of 24, being black and beautiful... still gets DuitRaya !!
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• Hectic 2nd raya, raya-ing up to 9houses in ONE DAY!!!
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• and of course, had ALL OF MY CRAVINGS!!! <3>

p.s: LOVE Y'ALL!!

forgot

im the type of person who easily forget things....

when i was younger,

i always forgot to bring home my bento, homework, pj shirts, pencilbox and all...

and my mom said...

"if you could unscrew ur arms and legs, i bet you'd forget them too..."

come to think of it...

i seriously think, i could.... >.>

Singaporean Malaysian Trip!

after a year of not seeing each other!!

i finally met my life lover, my mom!! 

IBU SRI!!

she stopped by at Damansara for a lil holiday with her family,

and my, arent they a pack!!

i miss em all so much!!

Uncle Haidil (ibu sri's hubby) & Baby Ayu

sweet rascal!! :))

abang (Haizil)

hailisya (bubble)

sha'amin & Hairil

my sweet2 rascals... just em both can be a handful!! >.>

my ibu is a derp-er!! TROLL!! ;P

the reason im alive..

the reason im strong...

the reason im me

the reason for evry good thing in this world that happens to me!!

i love you ibu!!

Ma MOMMA Is Special!!

Sri Asmarani & Nor Aliah Lee

the 2 most AMAZING women in the whole wide world!!

*need i say more??*

Happy Momma Day

I Love You so Very da Very Much!!!

blackberry pearl?? sweet!!

yup..

bought a new sweet lookin hp,

n i cudnt believe it was a BB...

sweet, chic n very simple...

whadya think? ;p

BlackBerry Pearl

actually,

i didnt plan to buy this, 

i was randomly walking around to see if there any FLIP phone that's cute... 

maybe its fate when i saw this...

and i straight away ask the man for the price...

Quite reasonable, considering the cheapskate i am...

so yeah... ;p

a BB flip phone...

too cute!! i like!! <3

(cant wait to paste stickers on it... kekeke)

CoinBox Surprise!!

this super cute coin box is just breathtaking and so adorable!!

i cant stand it!! i just have to have it...

luckily, my mom was around, so i made her buy it for me...

how childish can i get.. but hey... im forever her baby... hehehe <3

im just so happy!!!

Cant Touch This!!

She's too gorgeous to ignore...

She's my MOM...

nope...

cant's beat this!! she's too great...

:)

pretty!!!

p.s: rindu....

p.s.s: sory iQin.... stole this from you... ;p

Happy Birthday Angel

yup..

24 February

Happy 39th Birthday Ibu

sorry i cant make it home..

but when i do..

i'll make that assam pedas u want, ok?

:)

even when u n ayah divorced,

u still took good care of me...

ur a wonderful woman,

despite what the world says about you.

Thank You and I Love You

to the world, 

for a woman who took care of a lady who has no blood relation frm a very young age,

i think you all shud screw ur lips frm all these pointless gossips.

i nvr met "cinderella stepmother" in my entire life.

she's not my stepmother, she's my Mother.

:)

p.s: next year, going back to ur "20s" ek? ;p

Ibu and Me

my mom on the left n me on the right...

do we look the same??

i cant help laughing...

i dunno why...

i love you ibu... ;)

video for Ibu Sri

my 1st video on internet..

yeahh... that's how i talk basically..

i stutter and stammer alot...

pardon me...

ibu... 

haa.. hamik... xdpt bce so tgk la vid ni... hahah!!

no more alasan!!

;p