Listen To Your Heart, You Will Understand

Friday, May 29, 2015



I'm a wife since 2 weeks ago. Crazy? I know! But expected. Know him too long to get married. LOL.

15 May 2015

After a week of not seeing each other, I saw him smiling confidently in front of me, facing my dad. My dad on the other hand, tried hard to distract himself from feeling cheerless. He, after all, am going to hand me over to another man.

The ceremony started with doa's and speeches. Friends and family members took this chance to smile and wave at me on the dais. My mom and I, both were feeling excited and nervous, witnessing 'business talks' between men, of the exchange (of me).

The moment my dad took Topet's hand, my heartsank.

" Mohamad Taufik Hidayat bin Mohamad Ali Shahbuddin, aku nikahkan kau dengan anakku, Puteri Nnrul Fatehah binti Aziz, dengan mas kahwin, RM**, tunai."

"Saya, Mohamad Taufik Hidayat bin Mohamad Ali Shahbuddin, terima nikahnya, Puteri Nurul Fatehah binti Aziz, dengan mas kahwinnya, RM**, tunai.'

With those words, going only once, I officially became Taufik Hidayat's wife. Puan Puteri, I must say. LoL. My mom got excited, whispered, congrats sayang. You're a wife now. Whereas for my dad, he tried his very best to hold in his tears, as i saw a glimpse of him looking at me with teary eyes. I love you ayah.

The feeling is tremendously heartfilling.

Thank you ayah, for being there for me ever since forever. For 27 years, I failed you multiple times, but never once you failed me. Thank you for everything. You truly a superhero. I love you so much.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

7 days

Just a week left of my single life. Every time I am reminded of the date, my heart beats so hard, I feel like puking. It's nerve wreaking to understand the concept of getting in a marriage life, that it scares yet excite me all in the same time. To be included in a new family. To be accepted. To learn a new family tradition. To understand others personally.

Understanding my future husband isn't that hard, as you all know how long I've been with him. But to be seen/known in a new way. a 'WIFE'. Can you imagine?

"Hey bro. Let me introduce to you, my WIFE."

It way sound simple, yet, to be called a wife, is already a new stage of life for me. Things may seem like normal, but it'll all feel brand new. Like a new born child. A new phase of life.

I know, this is nothing to be compared to being a MOTHER, but I believe in embracing each and every detail in life to the fullest. Not to take anything for granted, or we may never know the true essence of life (me, yapping).

Also, to be accepted by the other half, it's so fulfilling as all my flaws and dots are accepted and well embraced by him. It feels wonderful and magical. Every laughter, tears, anger are to be shared together for a life time.

Life is beautiful. To be accepted as who I am.

Thank you.

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