Listen To Your Heart, You Will Understand

Sunday, May 29, 2011


you are the strawberry to my chocolate cake Pavlova.

with love

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Junko Furuta

i was trolling the internet, reading random articles of amazing and weird things,
when i encountered a very2 cruel and sad blog post.

Junko Furuta:
this case happened in end of 1988,
Junko was tortured by 4 men (masked devils) for 44 days until her last breath.
they tortured her so badly, i almost cried reading it.
here is how the tortured went:

DAY 1:
 November 22, 1988:
Kept captive in house, and posed as one of boy’s girlfriend
Raped (over 400 times in total)
Forced to call her parents and tell them she had run away
Starved and malnutritioned
Fed cockroaches to eat and urine to drink
Forced to masturbate
Forced to strip in front of others
Burned with cigarette lighters
Foreign objects inserted into her vagina/anus

DAY 11:
 December 1, 1988:
 Severely beat up countless times
Face held against concrete ground and jumped on
Hands tied to ceiling and body used as a punching bag
Nose filled with so much blood that she can only breath through her mouth
Dumbbells dropped onto her stomach
Vomited when tried to drink water (her stomach couldn’t accept it)
Tried to escape and punished by cigarette burning on arms
Flammable liquid poured on her feet and legs, then lit on fire
Bottle inserted into her anus, causing injury

DAY 20:
 December10, 1989:
 Unable to walk properly due to severe leg burns
Beat with bamboo sticks
Fireworks inserted into anus and lit
Hands smashed by weights and fingernails cracked
Beaten with golf club
Cigarettes inserted into vagina
Beaten with iron rods repeatedly
Winter; forced outside to sleep in balcony
Skewers of grilled chicken inserted into her vagina and anus, causing bleeding

DAY 30:
 Hot wax dripped onto face
Eyelids burned by cigarette lighter
Stabbed with sewing needles in chest area
Left nipple cut and destroyed with pliers
Hot light bulb inserted into her vagina
Heavy bleeding from vagina due to scissors insertion
Unable to urinate properly
Injuries were so severe that it took over an hour for her to crawl downstairs and use the bathroom
Eardrums severely damaged
Extreme reduced brain size

DAY 40:
January 1, 1989:
 Begged her torturers to “kill her and get it over with”
 Junko greets the New Years Day alone
Body mutilated
Unable to move from the ground

DAY 44:
 January 4, 1989:
The four boys beat her mutilated body with an iron barbell, using a loss at the game of Mah-jongg as a pretext. She is profusely bleeding from her mouth and nose. They put a candle’s flame to her face and eyes.Then, lighter fluid was poured onto her legs, arms, face and stomach, and then lit on fire. This final torture lasted for a time of two hours. Junko Furuta died later that day, in pain and alone. 

Nothing could compare 44 days of suffering she had to go
through. When her mother heard the news and details of what had happened to her daughter, she fainted. She had to undergo a psychiatric outpatient treatment . 

Imagine her endless pain. Her killers are now free men. Justice was never served, not even after 20 years. They deserve a punishment much greater than they had put upon Furuta, for putting an innocent girl through the most unbearable suffering. This story from 1989 is true. Please spread her story around. Everyone should know about the existence of Junko Furuta’s unimaginable and incomprehensible suffering, and this is why this group has been made. Invite your friends. Never let her story be forgotten. If this story changes the life of at least one person then it has been worth it.

Rest In Eternal Peace,
Junko Furuta


its a good thing that im not a
famous million dollar pop-singer,
who hv social problems whatsoever,
or else, i wud be rebelling SO bad
i'll be the 

really man!!
being protected is nice n lovable..
but overly protected??
i cud turn into a black swan!!

you guys gotta chill,
its not like im a total noob in life?
in fact, im totally independant!!
you guys said so urselves,
so what's with all the hollaballoos??

p.s: thankfully that i am sane enuff not to spoil my life with drugs, alcohol, sex or hving social problems...

TALK it out

most of the time,
if you talk out the problem,
it can easily be solve...

but if you start out with anger,
ego rises,
both parties get hurt, right?

despite what u said b4,
"explain to them, they wud understand",
why didnt you do that?

if u feel that what i said is hurting you,
did you thought why i did that?
did you thought,
i must hv said something to make her say that.

if you understand the situation,
and try asking why things happen,
it wudnt turn out this way, right?

greatest cause for an argument: assumptions
i guess that happened, right?

p.s: i really dont understand this... jezz.. feeling a Dejavu here...

Wednesday, May 18, 2011


I am a Muslim woman.
But, i admit that my iman is not that strong whereas it shud be.

but please please please,
read the al-Qur'an again,
do a lil research on how to cover your aurat.

Jews and Christians also wears Hijabs.
to respect your Islam religion,
please wear it the right way.

Quit wearing ur hijabs with
inner shirts, 
baby tshirts,
and all those clothings that exposes the shape of your body!

if other Muslims were to come to our country, seeing how u wear it,
im sure they will laugh and ask what religion are u.

its not wrong to be fashionable,
just limit yourselves to evaluate which fashion can be used.
be smart.. please la...
the world is getting uglier...
you dont have to be part of it...

click this link and read it with an openheart,
if ur gonna wear your hijab,
make sure you wear it right.

there's no use when ur wearing ur hijab 
but getting the same sins as the ones who doesnt..


p.s: you guys may say, that i dont hve the rights to say this to you all, but, as a muslim cousin, i feel that i hv a responsibility to tell this.

Lazy Holiday

4months of holiday...
started: 10th May 2011
today: 18th May 2011

damages done: none

its so true!!
the only time when ur free to do anything is when ur busy!!
now that im really free, im "too busy" (lazy) to do anything!!

oh Allah, 
Please help me!!
i dont want another senseless holiday!!

p.s: sure it reminds me of bruno mars's (lazy song), but this is ridiculous... >.>


2moro starts one of the biggest event in his career life,
his internship days!!

although he used to have working experience like this,
but to me, its important and big...


Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Blur like a bunch of SOTONGS!!

*bla bla bla about thesis*

you get it or not?


*repeat the thesis blabbering*

now you get it?

*blur face*

aiyoo.... you're in your slow mode, arent you?

im sorry... >.>

p.s: yeah... that mode turn on Quite freQuently, i tell you... >.>

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Ma MOMMA Is Special!!

Sri Asmarani & Nor Aliah Lee
the 2 most AMAZING women in the whole wide world!!
*need i say more??*

Happy Momma Day
I Love You so Very da Very Much!!!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Soul Sister Sisters

random video by Aisya, Ain n me...
off-key..? no prob.. ;p


so... BITCHY mode.... ON!!

so like, yeah.. 

by the age of 7,
i already got a boyfriend..
i admit it.. 
but i didnt really actually count that as an official couple,
coz, i think it's just silly... we were 7 for god sakes!!

when i turn 13, 
i still play POKEMON cards and stuff!!
total maturity level : ZERO!!

so like yeah...
coincidently,  this "ex" boyfie of mine turns up on FB..
so yeah... who wudnt get all excited eyh??
getting all..
"omg!! u remember this time.. and that time.. and this guy.. with that guy??"
yeah.. all good and merry...

he starts with this very immature flirting line...
and when i turn him down...
he was like...
"eww.. ur ugly... u got no taste..."
then the next thing u know, he went all...
"i want you... u know ur ugly... that's why im here for u..."
"u remember the feeling when we hold hands long ago??" and stuff...

its getting really funny how at the age of 7, 
iv already been given the ability to give a HUGE impact to a moron??

im not impressed...
and then.. starts comparing my relationship with his??
mind you, you got a gf... stop with this rubbish!!
"FYI, my relationship has been 2years oredy... what about urs?"
"my gf is so beautiful... even more than you.."

I dont give a dang mind how pretty she is or how ugly i am..
I dont even care how long ur gf stays with you..

in fact...
 i wud love to be happy for u relationship, but in this manner??
ur making me sick!
i respect your gf... so do respect mine...

cut it man!!
im not even jealous... not even abit??
its starting to get really creepy and annoying and bothersome..
cant you be like other normal friends??

man.. im too creeped out to even stumble into u anywhere...!!
dude... its not SEXY or FUNNY at all to be mr. DESPERADO.. 

p.s: Bitchy mode is now off.... 
sorry... its just that... this wasnt the 1st time he bothered me like this... 3x is already enuff...

*melting in progress*

boys are so cute when they make that sweet "mamai" voice..

agree noe?

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

How now brown cow?

IQin is going to college soon!
Aiman will be having his PMR exams (target best result)
Aisya with her big UPSR exam (target SBP)

i need a job..
and abit of life in self...
im getting rather rusty...
feeling like 32 than 23.... >.>