Listen To Your Heart, You Will Understand

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

Togetherness

People say, even when you're with somebody for years, it's a different story once you get married. It won't be as beautiful, romantic anymore.

I'd just brush those words off my shoulders. Topet and I are too close and lovey-dovey to be dull.

Boy, how wrong I was.. but, it's not as bad as I thought.

Yeah, I admit, we got dull and grey. Everything is a routine, and everything is made to be untold (meaning, things done without much communication). It got boring and the marriage got so stale, so we decided to have a child, hence, MIKA...

Once Mika came in, the 1st few months was the most beautiful moment. This is going to spark our family up again. But things got wilder than before. We are both new and still wet behind the ears when it comes to parenting, so there's sooooooo much to argue about. We both just won't back down.

Even now, I realized, I got more aggressive and angry whenever I talk to my husband, especially when he won't even pay attention, but I too, notice my own flaws. I get more disagreeable and unpleasant, not to mention emotional and negative. I'm not sure why.

But, one thing for sure, no matter how I think I'd get aggressive, I keep in mind, not to keep unwanted feelings under, or I'm bound to explode (undesirable) or fall into depression (very scared of). I share things with my husband, either he agrees or not, he has to bear this with me, it's why got married in the 1st place; to share.

My husband, on the other hand, can be sooooo... urghh... (but I love him so much, it frustrates me). He pays so little attention when talking, and really don't know how to sugarcoat words (not that I ask a lot of). At least, to listen to my opinions, rather than forcing me to scream it out to you. This is exactly why I like to decide things myself because he can be so unattentive and wishy-washy... I wish to just snap his PS4 in half so he can stop playing GTAv ALL THE TIME.

Cayang, I really miss our small pillow talks, about simpler things like aliens and the cosmos. Luckily, I still get snuggles when I demand it... I really wish you'd pay more attention to me than looking for money all the time... sigh~

Thursday, May 3, 2018

New Home


Alhamdulillah,
Our small family's rezeki.

Bought a home for the future.
Things can be scary now,
but we'll work hard to get things through.

In Syaa Allah


Mika Uthman's 1st Year




Fun Fact:

Most of these footages are Mika's first everything,
etc:-
first commando crawl
first crawl
first lemon
first ferry ride
first announcement

pretty basic stuff,
but as a new parent, 
every single milestone count!

Birthday Party


Dah lepas dah
saja letak sini.

note for future Mika
(if he ever finds this outrages blog)

YOUR IBU DESIGNED THIS!

Friday, April 27, 2018

MikaOne


My baby boy turns 1!

Can't believe it has been a year already.
Things went up and down for sure,
but overall, I think it mostly went up for us new parents.

Seeing this human being that we managed to bring out into the world,
to feed, nurture, play and share many things,
is both sad yet beautiful experience,
for every blink, every hug, every snuggle, and tickle,
he grows,
stronger, braver and independent.

it aches my heart,
as much as it makes me glad to see him advancing.
I quit my job, to be a full-time SAHM,
just so I don't miss out any of his milestones.

He learned to salam, to wave bye-bye, to snuggle when asked.
He makes more expressions and impressions.
He has teeth now, and he grins wider than ever.

My baby boy, even when you're 10, 20, 40 or even 75.
I'll always remember you as a wee little boy,
grinning ever so wide, so carefree and full of love.



Ibu and Babah loves you so much.
Mueez and Mateen, too.




p.s: Ibu nak nangis typing blog entry ni.
Tapi babah kaw ni, kuat sgt lak dia gelak2 main GTAv dgn Pak Ngah Rezza kaw... spoil... 

Monday, March 12, 2018

New SAHM Schedule (weekdays)

8.30am
Pretending to be sleeping while my son whines in this cot,
trying to wake me up.


approx. 8.45 - 9am
Wake up and Breakfast for Mika (with Storybots on TV)
Make Breakfast for Hubster, for work

10am
Bath time for Mika
Morning Playtime

11am
Mika's susu and naptime

11.30am
Ibu shower / Watch TV

approx. 12pm
Mika up from nap
Afternoon Playtime

1pm
Send Mika to nursery
Grocery shopping

approx. 2pm
Clean house:
Vacuum / Mop / Wash toilet / Laundry
or
Freelance job (if any)
or
Do nothing / Netflix and chill / Play PS4

5.30
Start to cook dinner

7pm
Pick up Mika from nursery

8pm
Mika's dinner
Hubby back from work

9pm
A little bit of night playtime

9.30pm
Mika's susu and bedtime

10pm
Clean up after:
wash dishes and bottles / Mika's dinner mess

11pm
Ibu's chill time

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Approx. 6-7am
Mika wakes up for susu 
and continue to sleep

Love HATE

Something about me...

My whole life, I have this odd love-hate relationship with Virgos. Just knowing people born under that zodiac sign gives me the icks...

As a Libra, we tend to TRY to be fair and just towards everybody. We're calm and collective, we're so-called romantic and spontaneous. 

Whereas Virgos, despite being just next to Libra, they're the opposite of us. They're ambitious and independent, very very logical, and especially wants everything their way, because to them, it's the best option.

My sister, my ex-bibik, and my husband.

They irritate me a lot more than they should, pushing me to my limit! But I can't help myself loving them, as much as they bug the hell out of me.

No, I'm not saying that I'm in a toxic relationship, I, of all people, should know what's a toxic relationship looks like (FEMINISM!). It's just that, there were times when I feel like choking them for killing my vibe all the time. They so tedious and tactical, they do things TOO strategically, things that they think is convenient for them, but definitely not me!

I, on the other hand, being a Libra, loves going spontaneously and romantically, like planning birthday pranks or going on a romantic dinner.. but no, they hate em, waste of money and energy. urghh!!!

Nonetheless, I love them Virgos very much. Just, sometimes, I feel like murdering them with bags of peanut butter!! (That doesn't make much sense, does it? But whatever)