Listen To Your Heart, You Will Understand

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Let's Start a Family

I had a short chat with hubby the other night. Goes something like this...

Cayang, can I ask you something
(i would always start our convo with this to make sure he's paying attention)


Do you get jealous sometimes, at friends who has complete (not divorced) parents?

I do.


yeah. do you?

I do. I always wondered what would it be like to have dinner with my ayah and ibu sri, at home, home cooked meals...


I wouldn't call my family (or his) broken. Just not compatible. Some are just so fortunate to feel belong in a family still attached to each other. We didn't get to experience that. I didn't get to experience that my whole life.

but not that I'm fretting over the past.

this got me to realized, we need to love and stick to each other, for the sake of our child(ren).
I wanna be a complete family, forever. I beg for this. I'll fight for this. In syaa Allah...

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

That slight bump

Just wanna record,

4th January 2017

Your dad felt your kicks for the first time. :)
His reaction? "Damn...."

I love you both very much. <3 p="">

Tuesday, December 20, 2016


My 2 favourite thing to watch is forbidden now by hubster (because of pregnancy)...

Horror movies and pimple popping videos.

what is my life now?



Say I'm selfish and cruel,
Say I'm being disrespectful and ignorant...

Tapi, saya cukup tak suka pujuk orang yang merajuk or sentap tak tentu pasal.

I'm likely unsociable, I really seldom call people just to say hi. It's my semi-introvert attitude, and people closest to me should understand. But, as far as i know, if you want me to entertain you (if you miss me or just feeling lonely), I am more than happy to oblige, because I care.

What pisses me off is when you're just blaming me for not caring. You know what? I'm not a mind reader. We don't have that telepathic communication skill where i can feel that u need me.

You saying that i forget you, or that I never call, why don't you make the effort to call instead of waiting around? Tak susah, kan? But, no. You just have to indulge in your ego, that I have to call you first because I should know that you need me.

It's nice to know that you thought of me at times. I think of you guys, too. Tapi, aduhai.. apa lah salah nya, kamu call saya je? Tak salah apa aihh.. Tak payah la nak sentap merajuk, tak mengaku kawan/famili bagai. It's different if you call me all the time, but I never return call. I didn't call you, and you didn't call me, but I'm the bad one? No fair, ok?

p.s: siapa sentap, just so you know, I sentap too ok... 

Wednesday, November 2, 2016

Baby Oh~

Yeah yeah.

Been 3 months preggy now...
Just making sure the baby's alright before I announce anything.

So yay us... :)

I found out when we went to Penang for a week holiday with my in-laws when I felt different, moody and uncomfortable. I didn't suspect anything at 1st, but my boobs just started to swell up (as per usual happens whenever I'm getting my period.) Odd thing is, my period was almost a month late, but I just ignore it because my period is sometimes irregular at random months.

ALSO, I get sleepy and tired easily. I slept long hours and often, I felt embarrassed with my in-laws.

Back from Penang, I thought that I should at least try to do the pregnancy test (though I was a bit skeptical since I tried twice before and came out negative.) So, I woke up in the morning and did the test. Being dilly dally, my jaw dropped as the test came out POSITIVE! OMG!!

I showed it to hubster, and he was somewhat excited (yet a little skeptical, but don't blame him, I wasn't so sure as well.). A few days later, we found time to visit the doctor and did a thorough scan. It was the oddest and magical thing. I saw the little peanut. I was POSITIVELY PREGNANT!

(Our 1st scan. 5 weeks)
(my dad stole this picture) (not his fault though)

I did a surprise to my dad and the rest of my siblings on my dad's birthday party. Everybody was overreacting (my sisters cried so bad). They were thrilled with the news.

I also told a few of my good friends the news, especially the mommies. They sent a lot of mommy tips and tricks. Thank goodness for them.

(8 weeks and saw his heart beating)
(Ibu and Ayah are here for you, baby)

Got to admit, it's weird calling ourselves Ibu and Ayah. We still haven't finish adulting yet!!
(I know we're freaking 28, shut up)

(And is where I almost cried)
(12 weeks and going strong)

During the 12 week scan, hubster can't find a parking spot, so I went to the clinic myself. I felt sad for my husband, he missed seeing his baby looking almost human like already. It developed those tiny fingers and toes. It was kicking and floating, all in my womb. It was magical and weird and awesome and scary (but a good type of scary).

Alhamdulillah, I'm glad we got pregnant. Pray for a joyful and blissful pregnancy and may we produce a beautiful offspring. 

p.s: can't wait for the gender!

Coconut Oil

Cayang, help me apply coconut oil on my belly.

Tak nak.. tak suka bau dia..

But I don't want stretch marks on it!

Hubby applies oil on belly unwillingly.

Ni bukan habis 1st trimester ni.. Ni dah 6 semester ni..

* * *

Thanks for the unwanted remarks, Cayang. >.>

p.s: yes, I'm pregnant. :)

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Taufik Hidayat & Puteri Nurul Wedding

It has been a year plus since the wedding, and I finally manage to finish it.
My procrastinating illness is severe.

well, at least it's done now, Alhamdulillah.. :)

Take My Hand (The Wedding Song)
by Emily Hackett ft. Will Anderson

Friday, June 17, 2016


Just had the most polite grabcar driver ever! 

- He invited me to sit at the back (as a passenger) (but i sat infront anyway)

-ultimately soft spoken 

- He said, "omg, you're so polite!" Ok..

- He asked if I was well, coz i was snivelling a little.

- He literally said, "Oh, please take care of yourself."

- He told me to take medications.

- He drove like, fricking slow on a highway!!

- Kept smiling, all the way!

- He started his sentences with "I'm sorry", "thank you", or "oh my god"

- He asked if i was going to work. i said yea. Then, he made this genuinely worried face and said, "Oh my god, please take care of yourself" like I'm going to see a crazy ex boyfriend.

So cute. 😂😂

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Syukur Alhamdulillah

"Perempuan tak reti masak, tak boleh buat bini!"
Syukur jodoh kamu pandai masak.

"Perempuan bangun lambat? Takmo aku kahwin perempuan gitu!"
Syukur jodoh kamu hari-hari bangun awal.

"Eee.. mencarut! Susah kahwin kang!"
Syukur jodoh kamu berbudi bahasa.

"Belajar tinggi-tinggi, last-last jadi duduk dapur gak!"
Syukur jodoh kamu nak jadi surirumah.


Tapi ingatlah kaum Adam.

Nobody's perfect.

Layakkah kamu nak hukum orang begitu? Sedangkan:-

Masih perlu isteri bekerja demi tampung family

Masih solat tak cukup 5 waktu

Masih 'cuci mata' sana sini


Kaji molek-molek.

Suami yang wajib
sediakan rumah buat isteri (maintanence). agama dia sempurna.
sediakan makan minum (masak and hidang). bagi nafkah kepada isteri.

Tapi manusia tak perfect.
Kamu tidak PERFECT.

If we can accept you, flaws and all, why must you judge us?
What goes around comes around.

give and take. Bersyukur dengan apa yang ada.
Insya Allah,

p.s: naik menyampah dengan mentaliti sesetengah orang. jelak.

Monday, June 6, 2016

Choco and Durian..

Hubby's logic: 

Wife is crying, complaining about her life,

Best solution?

Chocolate ice cream..



need i say more, why I love this man?