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Wednesday, March 23, 2016

Nestum? Nasty!!

Sorry guys,

There isn't anything wrong with Nestum. It's just that, I hate it so much, I can gag just thinking about it.

Although, there are times when I crave for it. But most of the time? NOPE!

You see, when I was alot, lot, lot younger, my dad and I was almost skin and bones. Too small and skinny. My then step mom thought we looked horrid and unwell, so she managed a meal schedule for us. We had full course meals everyday, including the dreaded supper time. 

Let me enhance, that time, i was so skinny, I didn't eat much (as today's gluttony self). Every extra spoonful was a torture.

Back to supper, my mom would fix us both Nestum, every night before bedtime, and I weren't allowed to go to bed until i finish every spoonful! I had it worst when my then stepmom thought i ate too slow, she fed me herself. She'd force me to swallow every bite, up to the point when i had enough, that I'd gag. But the more i gag, the more i was fed. There was no escape!! It was like that every night until my body starts to look healthy again.

But, up to this day, I can't look at Nestum without thinking of it being shoved in my throat. The nightmare...

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

short shorty sighted

My eye sight is getting worse by the year! Siapa anak Aziz ni, memang sejarah rabun kuat! Adik beradik sume berderet pakai glasses. Tunggu yg bongsu je. Most likely because of our addiction or life dedication to electronic screens. But then again, 4 out of 5 of my dad siblings, they all wore glasses.

I hate glasses, such a burden to my nose and so much sight limitations, not to mention the goofy look i got when i wore them with my hijab. urgh!! But i can't get used to contact lenses either. They made my eyes tired and dry, annoys me to my brain. Besides, it's an easier option to wear glasses instead of contacts.

I remembered, my eye sight was bad that i can't read signboards. Now, i can't even see the book right in front of me! It's increased so bad, I'm totally annoyed, I feel like doing lasik surgery. Ni baru naik power jadi 2. The rest of my siblings got their powers up to 7 or 8! I don't know how are they not annoyed. 

I just hope my future children would get their father's perfect eye sight. And eyes. :)

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

the little things

"awak sapu bilik ke tadi? thank you, yang."

"bilik kemas semacam arini? thank you."

"oh! cuci toilet? rajin awak. Thank you, yayang."

"thank you for not cutting your hair short."
(he likes my hair long. i like mine short.)

"sedap awak masak. thank you."
(hakikatnya, termasin sana sini)

"thank you teman saya arini."


thank you for noticing, cayang.

Friday, January 15, 2016

Monday, January 11, 2016

30 Day Challenge (Day 15)


Day 15: In 5 Years


I see myself
with stained hijab, crumpled shirt and jeans, 
carrying a toddler, who's nose of his/her father and eyes like his/her mother.

I see myself
laughing as this toddler waddled his/her way towards my husband,
as he kept cheering for him at a distance.
"tateh tateh"

I see myself
on a rocking chair at home, feeding this child,
while my husband watches his tv show while holding my hand.

I see myself
waking up from wet kisses and laughters from my 2 favourite people,
demanding for breakfast.

I see myself
loved and complete.

I see myself 
with you and our child.
My family.

30 Day Challenge (Day 14)


Day 14: 3 Healthy Habits

Well, not very healthy but yeah, ok?

#1
I go to the gym now.
Making it a routine.
(no, not my new year resolution)
(i signed up way before new year)
(i have my reasons)
(my husband called me fat)

#2
I have a meal routine now.
(though, I kinda messed up on the weekends)
(coz, I'm don't leisurely wake up in the morning)

#3
I practice smiling alot.
(makes me feel wonderful)
(and a whole lot younger)
(best therapy ever)

30 Day Challenge (Day 13)


Day 13: Inside My Fridge

A mess.
That's what inside it.

New Eating Habits (hopefully lasts)

Breakfast
Quaker Oat with fruits.
And herbal tea.

Lunch
Rice (half portion) with fish/chicken/egg and vege
or anything else (pasta or anything lah)

Snacks
Occasionally fruits
But most of the time nothing at all.
With herbal tea.

Dinner
Bihun noodle soup or just soup.

Every day the same, with constant nagging from abang eno.
urgh!! naik jelak dah.

i miss KFC and Nasi Lemak.
i really do.
;'(

What a bloke

Yesterday, as my husband and I were driving out to my office, there's this one douche got angry at us in the trafic. He accused my husband playing with his phone and let the car go backward, which is very odd.

My husband apologised and just went off our merry way. It's not like we hit him or anything, i presumed. But my husband said that he may had hit him alil, but more like a touch or a bob. 

To my observation later on, he was following us so very close at the back. I could recognise his purple car. I ask my husband if he was tailing us. Turns out, he was very close to begin with (which probably cause of the bump). And if he's really following us, just to ignore him.

He was really following us! I got scared and annoyed, and until a certain junction, he drove past us, showing us his (unclear) middle finger, and made a U-turn. Well, that went well. I guess he did want to argue, but didn't have the guts to stop us. What a weirdo.