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Friday, August 2, 2013

facing my own conseQuences

having friends or acQuaintances who are beautiful, clean skin, nice hair, have great sense of style and very sophisticated.. i often end up falling in deep depression with all those life time repeating Questions like:

why am i fat?
why do i have skin allergies?
why am i not sophisticated?

and to think that all this (pointing as whole self) are all actually my own doing.. my lazy ass doing. i used to have nice skin, i used to have a nice body (one that im satisfied with), i was just never sophisticated.. but what the heck...

i would always repeat, if only im willing enough to get up early to go to the gym, just to do the fast walk on the track mill every day, or do pilates like i promised myself, or eat healthily.. but i always ended up waking up at noon and have chips and sit all day infront of the PC, until god knows who calls, inviting me to go out. this giant lazy MOFO piece of ass... are you just gonna wait till ure all wrinkly and aging at the age of 35 and die at 40?? coz u hv a freaking cardiac failure?? too much fats in blood stream?? haa?? no i dont wanna...

and this skin... urghh... this dry eczema-ly ill skin... why u no follow what ibu said?? use lotion after shower!! everyday!! bring lotion evrywhere... i hv ill skin... cannot be dry... or things will pop up!! eww.. urghh... why is it so hard to be discipline..?? i need a life trainer...

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