a rainbow comes after the rain goes away...

a lie is never told

neither the truth

a picture speaks a thousand words

but, are the words

lies or truths?

dont sell your sorries

im just a beggar for mercy

i got no wealth to buy ur sorries

just to gain some sympathies

need not words of denial

need not snake eyes of envy

let my crying heart sleep on a wet pillow

let it shallow down drops of clashing crystals

time may heal

but my time has died

broken arrows... broken arrows

damn it..

never tell a lying truth

never smile from a lie

a rainbow comes after the rain goes away...

;)

aween

Location: in a taxi, on the way back home...

Sha'amin, Hailisya, Hazuwin

(so rowdy n noisy)

Puteri

ok... if you guys shut up... kakak tell story..

Sha'amin, Hailisya, Hazuwin

YEAYYY!!!

Puteri

ok... once upon a time.....

(Sha'amin kept listening, but Hailisya n Hazuwin fell a sleep)

Puteri

...and they live happily ever after.

Sha'amin

waa.. very good lehh... *starts asking Questions*

(later we reached our destination)

Puteri

Baby (Hazuwin).... Isya (Hailisya).. reach oredy... ;))

Hazuwin

hmm?? (mamai)

kakak,

you tell story so nice seyh...

Puteri

But you were sleeping??

Hazuwin

ngeee... ;D

p.s: so cute!!!!

Someone Once Told Me

Someone once told me,

THE GRASS IS MUCH GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE

but, always remind myself that,

not all green grasses are unoccupied.

So, i pack my bags up

and start climbing up faith

just to feel the pain of tumbling down

no use of crying...

no use of sighing...

no use of cursing ur legs for not being strong enuff.

get n keep climbing

to take a peek on glory

just to find sad stories of anxiousness

someone once told me,

THE GRASS IN MUCH GREENER ON THE OTHER SIDE,

but i only see black sands...

My Syawal 2010

super happy complete family:

Sri Asmarani

Puteri Nurul

Fitri Hailisya

Ayu Hazuwin

Muhd Sha'amin

This year Syawal, i've booked my looks for Saloma..

but... abit failed la...

so hard to get the 70's looks..

especially those beautiful eye makeup..

the hair, didn't get the time to do the curls...

so, i was thinking of doing the beehive (sorta la)

but my mom was like,

" your hair is so long, n heavy n stubborn.. its impossible to keep it up.. especially on hot humid days like this".

...give up...

loving my kebaya..

huhuh... was so attracted at the kain songket

and loving my heels!!

(that's my cousin bobo)

Against Nature

when a hunting dog saw a doe n fell in love,

it know,

it wasnt worth loving the doe..

the predator love the prey

a love against nature's way

they decide to break the way,

and evrything when against them and threw them away...

how?

how to overcome this fate so pure?

*something i read in The Zahir novel.. kept me pondering...*

fool proof (a proof that im a fool)

remember the night my tears fell

and my heart was broken apart

that's when u came to me

you say that you want me

under falling rains of november

you were everything to me

still everything to me

but i lied to you

saying what's not true

nothing to do with you

im ok, im fine

i dont wanna see you frown

wanna see you smile forever

dont wanna see you cry

when you hear my glass heart shatter

im fool proof

proof that im a fool

in the evening nights

i watched the star but was gazing at you

i heard your voice so very near

the northern winds brought it here

so close, i felt your warmth

too close, i heard your smile

dont fret much

our memories arent fading,

tho, im slowly closing

i wont lie one bit about how the sky flies

how the sky flies

i dont wanna see you frown

wanna see you smile forever

dont wanna see you cry

when you hear my glass heart shatter

im fool proof

proof that im a fool

yes.. i admit it

im a fool for you....

feelings

feelings,

it comes n go.

appear, disappear and reappear...

but it will nvr go away if you run away...

feeling,

its like an angry dog.

*BARK BARK BARK*

if you run, it will chase,

if you face it, it will go,

if you pat it.... either tamed or bite you..

there are few choices...

yeah, nobody can know for sure..

but 1 thing for sure,

feelings

will

never

go

if

you

go

...

yurp.. hard..

how to overcome it?

cry.. cry all you want...

smile... smile an honest smile...

be sad if ur happy being sad

dont pretend to be happy

coz pretending to be happy

will make others sad

dont sell cheap tears

coz its a crime to buy sympathy...

cry... an honest cry...

ask for a hug, for its the best glue for bleeding hearts

smile a pure smile

the best medicine for injured memories

talk

communication between hearts is important

trust

always trust Allah

always

for Allah listens to all wounded love soldiers

and cure them lovingly

sing merry melodies

dance to a pleasant tune

forget the world around you

coz you are on the center of the world

be a performer

you're a star

tell your stories of feelings