energy overloaded

it has been 5 days since we've finished shooting, since i hd a job... now im totally overloaded with extra energy that's keeping me from being hyper to sluggish. i better do something about this.. but what? i was thinking of hitting the gym or go on swimming but doing things alone is just not me.. and procrastination has totally took control of me.. oh bother~

now, im only waiting for my last 2 payments, so i can pay my bills and buy my essential needs to survive (the fact that im staying with my dad.. but hey, still need to get personal stuff right?). already listing down the things and people i need to pay, stuff need to buy and need to be done with for this month.. not that anyone care.. except for the ones receiving from me.

also.. already need to plan up my hari raya. its high time for me to give other duit raya already. by 25, its already at the stage of embarrassment if i were still to receive anymore duit raya...

mai gawd peepol!! cant you see that i hv boobs big enuff to breast feed someone already??

ehem..
anyway, the fact that i hv to give out duit raya, i tend to hv this dilemma of who to give and not to give? of course, i hv to give to my mom and baby sibbies... but, i hv this mix feeling of giving out to people that will be coming to visit, other family members and kids... i dont think i have enough income to give em lot, but i dunno if im fair or not. putting that aside, my baju raya will be recycled from my graduation abaya... that beautiful abaya, and already have the shoe, also recycled.. saving alot more than usual.. lucky me! and this year, i told my mom, not to bother much of informing others that im coming. singapore is as equally as hot as malaysia, so i dont wanna end up sweating with melted make up everywhere. i wud like to just stay home and stay under my ibu's armpit... hehehe.... also, kinda of my way of avoiding "le question".......

p.s: oh well... back to blogilates... hiyahh!!

Tiny drops on Friday

it has actually been along time since iv enjoyed random blogging. i was pretty much occupied and hella freaked out since graduation.

now that the future is now, my life as a rebellious adult is over. my only concern is not 'how to get a job'.. but actually.. 'what the hell am i actually good at?' and also 'what level of confidence must i have to actually apply a job?'

those are my doubts.

true, that i had a job with my dad, but that is only a temporary job, a freelance job.. as a filming crew, a continuity girl. how long am i suppose to stay like this. i need a career, not a job. to actually pay my bills AND to help me survive my future.

tough world out there.

So today, im spending my Friday over a friend's house. my house was to quiet and lonely, only waiting for my sibbies to come and visit. i miss em.. i dont really show my emotions... but yeah, i miss em alot... and ermmm, spring cleaning need to be done, my house is a wreck!! though, i always keep my room clean. tee hee...

amazed

im seriously am amazed of how long our relationship is..

for as far as i can remember... 

my longest relationships previously only lasted 3months..

thus, i can nvr get bored of you, and how i wish you will nvr get bored of me...

eventho we're together for 2years plus...

but.. we shared our stories for over 6 years already~

and now,

 we'v already talk of weddings, family and home...

but still be a friend in my life.. :)

thank you so much for your love.. 

i wish nothing more but you..

p.s: iloveyou

towel..

just...

how many times in your ADULT LIFE..

have you forgotten to take the towel with you to the shower..

only to realized it, half way through the shower?

coz,

i've done it alot of time... >.>

bravo derpette~

p.s: luckily my room is only beside the toilet...

how i wish to...

paint my nails

or 

colour my hair...

but mr. Boyfie wudnt allow me to...

he said he has doubt in the products..

whether it is halal for prayers or not...

just to make it sound sweet..

"i prefer the original you.. black hair with clean nails..."

gahh!! i lost~

p.s: i still wish i could... >.>

Demi Dia

Alhamdulillah...

our 70 days of battle on the drama field has ended... fuhh... toughie~~

the challenges we faced thru the job was unbelievable... heheh...

thank you guys... we will meet again sooner or later... :)

now, watch Demi Dia on TV3 (Akasia) every 7 to 8 pm... :)

drained but ok...

oh boy... 3 more days to go till i'll finish this shooting job...

warghh!!!

im drained but... gotta move on...

3 months...

almost 3 months of work...

even in the weekends...

alhamdulillah.. :)

strive!!