Moving Forward

Oh, almost forgot to mention,

I found a new job after more than 2 years of being a SAHM.

Mika is getting older and the more that I notice that he's missing something. Same age interactions. I tried to bring him out and let him mingle at playgrounds and play centers. He seemed awkward but enjoys it very much. He also lacks proper interaction response, meaning he doesn't know how granted It has only been only me and him most of the day.

So, I decided, it's time for him to go to playschool. But to do that, I need a job too. You know, to pay for the school.

So after almost half a year of actively searching for a proper job, I finally found one at WOBB. The location is a little far from our current home, but transportation wise, very convenient, plus there's a Montessori school very close by.

So, I got the job as a Video Editor, the company has been great, people are so friendly and accepting. I never had a company culture so proper and true. All this while my work has been the strongest survive (in both filming and event company).

Topet has never been happier that I finally got into the proper company system. He could relate so much with me now, even more than just talking about parenting. Of course, we had to sacrifice somethings, like unlimited holidays and breaks, but there's so much more benefits than the latter.

So, in the end, I got a job and a 'break' from being a parent for a while (don't get me wrong, I love being a mom, but I was seriously losing my sense of self-identity), Mika improving in his social skills and Topet is happy that I'm helping with the household income (meaning more money for saving, holidays and nice things). 

New Little One

Alhamdulillah...

I'm going towards my 2nd trimester with our 2nd child.

Mika is turning 3 years old at the end of this month.

I must say, we plan this very well indeed...

3 years gap.. huhu..

Speaking of family planning,

It triggers me that I was once told that,

"I speak as if I'm Godless..

To do family planning is not to trust Allah's plans."

I believe that Allah understands his servants' life sustainability, lifestyle, and needs.

We also need to limit ourselves every day to cope with living life in the city.

It's different compared to before.

People gave birth to many so, their kids can help them with work at a ripe age of 6.

We don't do that anymore nowadays.

We provide them until they're 18, sometimes even more.

From education, home, sustenance, protection, and affection.

It's a different age now,

So, we need to live in the current era.

"I trust that rezeki comes from Allah.

But, I also trust that we need to use our mind to limit ourselves"

In syaa Allah

"Ikat lah unta dan berserah la kepada Allah"

Togetherness

People say, even when you're with somebody for years, it's a different story once you get married. It won't be as beautiful, romantic anymore.

I'd just brush those words off my shoulders. Topet and I are too close and lovey-dovey to be dull.

Boy, how wrong I was.. but, it's not as bad as I thought.

Yeah, I admit, we got dull and grey. Everything is a routine, and everything is made to be untold (meaning, things done without much communication). It got boring and the marriage got so stale, so we decided to have a child, hence, MIKA...

Once Mika came in, the 1st few months was the most beautiful moment. This is going to spark our family up again. But things got wilder than before. We are both new and still wet behind the ears when it comes to parenting, so there's sooooooo much to argue about. We both just won't back down.

Even now, I realized, I got more aggressive and angry whenever I talk to my husband, especially when he won't even pay attention, but I too, notice my own flaws. I get more disagreeable and unpleasant, not to mention emotional and negative. I'm not sure why.

But, one thing for sure, no matter how I think I'd get aggressive, I keep in mind, not to keep unwanted feelings under, or I'm bound to explode (undesirable) or fall into depression (very scared of). I share things with my husband, either he agrees or not, he has to bear this with me, it's why got married in the 1st place; to share.

My husband, on the other hand, can be sooooo... urghh... (but I love him so much, it frustrates me). He pays so little attention when talking, and really don't know how to sugarcoat words (not that I ask a lot of). At least, to listen to my opinions, rather than forcing me to scream it out to you. This is exactly why I like to decide things myself because he can be so unattentive and wishy-washy... I wish to just snap his PS4 in half so he can stop playing GTAv ALL THE TIME.

Cayang, I really miss our small pillow talks, about simpler things like aliens and the cosmos. Luckily, I still get snuggles when I demand it... I really wish you'd pay more attention to me than looking for money all the time... sigh~

New Home

Alhamdulillah,

Our small family's rezeki.

Bought a home for the future.

Things can be scary now,

but we'll work hard to get things through.

In Syaa Allah

Mika Uthman's 1st Year

Fun Fact:

Most of these footages are Mika's first everything,

etc:-

first commando crawl

first crawl

first lemon

first ferry ride

first announcement

pretty basic stuff,

but as a new parent, 

every single milestone count!

Birthday Party

Dah lepas dah

saja letak sini.

note for future Mika

(if he ever finds this outrages blog)

YOUR IBU DESIGNED THIS!

MikaOne

My baby boy turns 1!

Can't believe it has been a year already.

Things went up and down for sure,

but overall, I think it mostly went up for us new parents.

Seeing this human being that we managed to bring out into the world,

to feed, nurture, play and share many things,

is both sad yet beautiful experience,

for every blink, every hug, every snuggle, and tickle,

he grows,

stronger, braver and independent.

it aches my heart,

as much as it makes me glad to see him advancing.

I quit my job, to be a full-time SAHM,

just so I don't miss out any of his milestones.

He learned to salam, to wave bye-bye, to snuggle when asked.

He makes more expressions and impressions.

He has teeth now, and he grins wider than ever.

My baby boy, even when you're 10, 20, 40 or even 75.

I'll always remember you as a wee little boy,

grinning ever so wide, so carefree and full of love.

Ibu and Babah loves you so much.

Mueez and Mateen, too.

p.s: Ibu nak nangis typing blog entry ni.

Tapi babah kaw ni, kuat sgt lak dia gelak2 main GTAv dgn Pak Ngah Rezza kaw... spoil...