30 Day Challenge (Day 13)

Day 13: Inside My Fridge

A mess.

That's what inside it.

thoughtlost

In a conversation and your brain left you hanging?

Happens all the time, especially when it doesn't really caught my interest (but usually pretends to).

Every time! When somebody was talking to me so interestedly about their stuff, surely I'll pay attention, but then, at one point, no matter if the subject was interesting or not, my mind will seem to go wandering off somewhere.. no.. more like NOWHERE.

It's not like those usual brain occupied or was thinking about something random. No. It literally went to space. Blank. Empty. It's like i skipped time and went forward a few minutes. Then felt ultimately guilty about not 'paying attention'. This feels extra weird when that somebody asks me a question about it. But then, DATA NOT FOUND. Shit. What was the question? What were we talking about? Where did I left off?

Oh, dang it Put, you time travelled again, didn't you??

oh. brain farted again.

30 Day Challenge (Day 6)

Day 6: What I'm afraid of...

#1

Cockroaches

#2

Riots

#3

Gore

#4

Nail ripping

#5

Pain

#6

Hell punishments

#7

Heights

#8

Wide open spaces (Agoraphobic)

#9

Guilt

#10

Broken hearted

p.s: there's more to this list, but gonna leave 10 of em for now.

Eyebrows

These furry bushes above my eyes.

Some say that i am blessed with thick eyebrows. Not denying them but, the real problem for me is, maintaining them.. and by that, i mean,

THREADING!!

these bushy brows can sometimes be so damn annoying, making me look like an untamed female tarzan.. with an almost uni brow.. not that it matters, but it matters... >.> Threading is a very painful process of grooming, for me at least. Never fail to cry even after a dozen times under the thread. Waxing? I'm good with that, occasionally, but threading.. just urghh~ But these brows just need to be kept.. some warned me that my brows might not grow anymore if i thread them, but no.. they just keep coming like tsunami a week after..

clearly, i'm not complaining about my bushy brows. I love them. It's a blessed feature on my face. Its just.. the threading.. >.> for those who hasn't been, you have no idea! but then, beauty is pain.. to groom is to bloom.. and whatever... or maybe i'm just exaggerating, or, i'm not immune to pain.. or i'm just a sissy~ whatever~

p.s: to thread a thick brow is more painful that those fine hairs. I haven't gone for months. making my brow grew thick again. It's gonna hurt so bad for my next session.. >.>

p.s.s: for grooming!! for love!!! 

p.s.s.s: things i do for love...

1st Blood Encounter

I know i'm way passed my baby-teen years to be blogging about this, but, meh~

I remember my 1st day of menstruating and it was the weirdest thing ever! It was at the very end of 2000 and was at my aunt's house. I had to pee, and i noticed this brown stain on my panties. oh damn, but it doesnt look like i've pooped myself... it was weird...

Then comes the advises and praises, like,

"oh my god Nurul, you've grown up now! Time to act like a lady"

"you need kotex or whisper. nothing is better than these"

then, the dad...

"you are now a woman. if i catch you having sex or pregnant, i'm going to disown you"

(not kidding, he really said that)

THEN, the agonizing, painful and weirdest feelings i went through.. for the whole half month! Everything was so new, I felt like an alien. And oh gosh! lets not talk about the leakings. Every leak looks like a murder scene and hiding a murder scene isn't always easy. And having something as thick as a notebook between you thigh isn't always comfortable. I get the wedgy all the time and the pad won't stay put. The mood swings are unbearable and the 1st day expectation is always a surprise. you expect it to come today but it has to stain the panties 2 days later when you least expecting it.

so yeah, i was 12, had my 1st time on new years eve and... it is still weird now.

Characters Suave

Something about these two that I adore so much~

They're dorky, cute and gorgeous~

and i dig em~

go go

Emma Stone & Jennifer Lawrence

how not to LOVE em??

LoL

Momma Bad Ass

look who i found loitering on FB!! It's my mom's high school picture!!

BWAHAHAHA!! I need to thank her friends for posting this.

She does looked like a delinquent bad ass! I like that!

p.s: That fierce look really suit her as a hockey player..

Weirdest dream

I just had one of my weird dreams last night...

It all began when a nuclear system somewhere exploded and it was so big and hazardous, many people died and all of the power system in the world blacked out.

I found myself with few of my family members, trying to survive the calastrophic event and we eventually went through it for few years. Within those years, everybody in the world turned inhuman and barbaric.. Somewhat insane.. And we're trying our best to survive everything. Nature took our cities and everything was left bare. 

Before sun down, me and my sister went out to look for branches and twigs to make fire.. (Since there's no power, we depend on fire for light at night). We came across an abandoned small children theme park and we went in (because i happened to saw a snake, those red, black and yellow ones)...

While collecting some brances and twigs for the fire, in the play park, it was almost dawn. We need to get back to our family before dark, and we know we wandered too far. When suddenly, we were captured by men in helmet and suits.

We were brought to a place, which seems like a modified school. They had power and running system and all.. It seems like a military base now. 

We were trained harshly and... ( i forgot the rest)...

I remembered being called to the office and being told that i'm selected to the special force. I had enough and ran away... All of the team force looked for me and i had to keep myself hidden.. I hid myself in a hooded sweater and tried to find my way to my family... And i had to get back in to find my sister.. LoL...

... And, i woke up...