Things happened

A lot of things happened and I don't feel the need to document my life stories anymore. At least, not at the moment. I simmered down abit. To tell you the truth, it got a little boring right now.

and no...

I'm not talking about my marriage.. duh... That has been super! and private.. hehehe..

I'm talking about my daily life now, with work, chores, family and friends. Things has been a routine to me lately. Been eager for the weekend from week to week, and friends, let's just say, we, they, us, had our own lives now. Some of us catch up on each other, but seldom. Even we, my husband and I, sometimes, don't feel like going out anymore.

I'm abit bored with life now. I even cried to my husband that I wanted to quit my job, cause it's stressing me out, but he needed my support still. I was being selfish. I'm not the type to stay in one job for a long period of time. This is the LONGEST job I've been into. 

I was thinking of going into business. Been taking advices from my friends, and am very excited for it, but, with my job now, I can't find the right time and mind for it. This has been going on for months. But I have yet to give up. Pinterest been a great help to me, too. (wink wink)

Well, enough sad stories. My life isn't that pathetic.

My 3 boys are almost 2 years old now. Everyone who came visit us kept saying they're bigger that regular cats, and by bigger, they mean, FATTER! Hahaha!! Now I'm training them for routine diet, no more free flow kibbles anymore. My bad. But, they look so cute when they're laying around, flat on their backs, exposing their fleshy tummies. It warms my stressful days, everyday.

Also, last month was our FIRST WEDDING ANNIVERSARY. Was so excited for months! But, I was sent out by my job that very week. I missed it. :(      But I celebrated it still. Made exclusive dinner (was only meatball bolognese but fancy af) with sparkling juice, watch TV...... and stuff.. That was a nice evening.

Then,... OH!

My baby sister got engaged! Oh yes.. Iqin got engaged. So happy for her. She was pretty in peach, smiling, being nervous and stuff. Ah, I remembered my days.. so naive and sweet.

While she was going around being congratulated at, I, on the other hand, just got chopped, stir fried and served. All the gushes of questions. You know that question... Baby this, baby that... I had to explain over and over again, we're planning after a year of marriage, but since everybody knew it has already been a year, they kicked me out of the event (in the cutest way lahh), tell me to go home and do some 'homework'.. even told me techniques and bazingas. I don't really mind them, but come on la aunty.. not at a gathering... not at my sister's engagement party, of all events! GOLLY!

Been wanting to blog from time to time, but every time I sat down and open the laptop, I don't feel like typing anymore. Probably, all i could think of is my job,  now that it reminds me every time I on a computer. I appreciate my surroundings more, spending time with my hubby, cooking, snuggling time with my boys, extra sleepy time.

Yeah, it's gonna be awhile now... Gotta cook!!

p.s: Malas nk letak gambar.. just go to my insta...

Pemimpi 3.0

It was on a subtle rainy day, we convoy with each other, heading to Bota, Perak, for a friend's wedding. Excited enough from being together again after a long time, we had bigger plans ahead.

On our way, we passed Sri Iskandar, where some of our best memories are made, especially for me. This is where i found my love. All the happiness and sadness of the past overwhelms me as we drove by those familiar places. Those places has changed alot. A freaking mall in SI?? We had to go to all the way to Ipoh if we wanted to buy anything, even underwears.. Whatever it is, those bittersweet moments will always remain there..

We've reached Syamil's wedding, decorated in Grey and candies. There were few people around as we were actually late. Thus, the event felt like ours. We had lunch, and greet each other whom came separated from us. We played and cuddle our baby Pemimpi, Fateh, and we went off...

Where? Home? No...

Topet, Eno, Dya, Nana, Wan, PC, Black, Ken, Izzad, Paan, Muaz, Hendrik, Ajim and myself...

... we were ready to spend our epic weekend in Pangkor Island..

The prediction of the weather we had wasn't very good. The forecast told us, it would be rainy and hardly any sun. But it didn't stop us. We stopped at a near gas station after the wedding to gas up, smoke up and us girls? Change up to comfy island clothes.. As soon as we reached Lumut, we had some difficulties of where to park our cars for the day. But that worked out fine.. RM20 per day, per car.

While waiting for 3 of our photographer friends (still taking photos of the newly weds).. Dya and I had some roadside ice-cream which felt very nostalgic to me. At the same time, Topet was caught by a makcik, selling snorkeling tickets to us. She said she'll sell the tickets cheaper to students.. At that point, all of us automatically admits that we were students. Liaarrss... hahaha!! But, we got cheap tickets and 1 free. Worth it! After that, we couldn't wait any longer, so we rode ahead on the ferry to Pangkor!

No matter how many times you've rode a boat, you'll always get excited on one each time. We all headed to the open view part of the ferry and enjoyed the breeze, taking selfies, as usual, using phones and gopro. Some of the boys even got help from some attractive french tourist.. na'ah Paan.. Behave~

As soon as we've reached the island, we halt a van taxi and it drove us all to Pangkor Inn. On the way, the boys were very rowdy, not too weird for them though. They act like that all the time. But it seems very funny in a compact pink van. Haha! The uncle didn't seem to mind at all. Thank goodness.

We've reached the Inn and was a little disappointed at it. The pool and the chalets looked larger in the photo, but it was shallow and small. Meh, sokay, we have the beach. The room felt so nice, but you know, like any other hotels or chalet rooms, all of them feels nice. We all were lead to our designated rooms. There were only 4 of us girls, so we fit 1 room. The boys filled 3 more rooms, 1 beside ours and 2 more a little further. We had our showers and rest, until we all gather for dinner. Dya was already making a list of what she wanted to eat, Lempeng Pisang, Jagung Bakar, Kerang Bakar and Ice Cream Goyang.

Dinner was fancy and wonderful. As usual, if you eat by the sea, you have to get seafood, so we had Ikan Masak Stim, Kerang Bakar, Ikan masak 3 Rasa, Kangkung Belacan and more.. The dinner highlight was went almost everybody ordered ice tea, and all was laughing of how the ice tea became mainstream. Through out, dinner was the bomb!

After dinner, i thought of rushing out to get some Ice Cream Goyang, but it closed by that time. Heart broken. We then, headed to the beach. It was dark and there, I was pointed out, small blue dots of light on the shore. They said it was the Kunang-Kunang Air (water fireflies). Heck, i wasn't sure.. but it was mesmerizing. I even caught one! Moving on, we halted at the far corner of the beach where there's hardly lights and personally, it was scary. But nope, they really insisted on staying there.

So we settled down, getting comfy on the wet sand and rocks. We started to play games. The 1st game we played was Sambung Lagu (continuing songs). In this game, after someone ended their song (anywhere in the song, probably the chorus or the bridge), the next person needed to continue a different song starting with the last word or the sound of the previous song, within 20 to 30 seconds. Any song can do. It was hilarious! At first, we tried solo, but it was too hard, so we paired up. I paired up with Dya, and most of the songs we knew was in English. After a while, with all the hardships and all, believe it or not. Dya and I were the 1st to get punished. HAHA! We were punished to point one finger on the ground and spin around it 10 times, and then high-5 your partner. Simple? NO! It made us dizzy and our coordination were sooo off, i didn't know what i was doing! It was dreadfully funny. And guess who's idea was that? My one and only, beloved fiancee, Topet and the sarcastic Muaz. The daredevils. After us, there were others who were punished the same as us. Too cute! After the game, we decided to play other games like Sambung Berita or ABC.. those were fun too, but not as fun as the 1st one.. We had to stop as the tides are flushing up on us and it was already midnight.

Back to our rooms, we hung out by the balcony, eating Dya's cupcakes and tarts. They were wonderful. We (mostly me though) played some fire sparkles that Dya bought. We chatted away silently in fear that the other inn neighbours might be bothered. It was a Quiet peaceful evening, with the night rain and friends gathered around. When its time to go, Muaz made a point to wake up early at 7.30 to swim. Everybody else was groaning, but believe me, nobody would wake up that early, not even Muaz. LoL..

I woke up the next morning, feeling so cold from the aircon. I stepped outside from the inn, chatting away with Dya, getting warmed up. It was 7.30 in the morning and it was raining, and guess what? Nobody else is awake yet! LoL! After 8, we knocked on Muaz's door, only to be answered by Hendrik. They claimed to have been up since 6am. Pfftt, as if. We got ready and all, and all of us we ready to hit the beach by 9am.

He had light breakfast that morning. Among 14 of us, they only order 5 nasi lemak, and was passed around, forcing each other to finish them. Haha! Then, we get on a boat to an island for snorkeling fun! The water wasn't as clear as Langkawi, that i went before, but going there with friends was worth it. Dya soon dropped her breathing pipe piece of her goggles. She was already panicking, losing the goggles (or a part of it) meaning having to pay RM80. We all search for it in the dusty sea. It was kinda hard to look. I found a piece of something on the ocean floor and i dived to get it before it got away. Instead of finding the pipe piece, i found a whole new set of lost goggle. Haha!! Since that, they called me Anak Laut. Whaa?? haha!! We moved ahead on the other side of the island. The water there was clearer and better, abit. We swam till our hearts contented. I nearly drowned (out of exhaustion) abit. Luckily, Topet grabbed me and saved me. Thanks cayang, my hero. My mouth was filled with water and my nose was cover with the goggle piece. I panicked. So, i tossed away my goggles (i tossed away my life jacket earlier), then i swam better. I swam like a fish. We even had Hendrik "free diving lessons" in the water, where he teaches us how to dive without letting out air. It was hard for me, i didn't succeed.

By noon, we all went back to the Pangkor Beach. My fiancee was too enthusiastic about this Marble water sport, he paid for me as well, without my consent.. Oh well, at least its not the Banana Boat. The Marble only supports 4 people per ride, So i rode with my fiancee, Paan and Black. Paan was responsible for the wrist Go Pro on this ride, so his left arm is occupied. The ride was amazingly extreme, I screamed for life! It was glorious! During the hectic ride, I locked Paan's legs with my legs to avoid him falling off the ride. I myself was tumbling off. In mid break of the ride, Topet took the Go Pro, so I responsible to lock him next, him especially since he's at the corner of the ride. It was wild and wonderful! I spitted out utter rubbish during the ride. Haha! Hendrik, Wan, Muaz and Ajim rode the next ride, and Hendrik and Ajim fell of the ride. Funny as it is, they refuse to admit it. We saw you guys, bro~ hahaa!!

Tired, wet and full of scratches and blood on our arms and feet (grazed them on corals during snorkeling), we showered and got ready to check out. We took our final pictures on the island before heading for the Jetty. On the ferry, many of us fell asleep until we reach the dock. We had lunch at Manjong. Before heading home, we stopped by the leaning tower of Teluk Intan. They wanted to check out the car exhibition nearby there. Our final stop before we all go separate ways was the Sg. Buloh RnR.. We applauded each other for their effort, company and fun. We laugh, swam and smile together. With heavy heart, they puffed they're final ciggy, we hugged our final hugs, and off we go, leaving this wonderful weekend behind us all.

We may have scars and muscle aches, but these are the things that bear in our minds, where we got them and why. Always ended up giggling remembering our weekend with Pemimpi 3.0..

Next stop, Pulau Perhentian 2015?

Sunny Ma Bunny No More~

Because of my tight schedule for work and personal playtime, I neglected my rebound love many times.. Im so sorry love...

Now, he's not with us anymore.....





 CHILL!! He's not dead yet!

My dad took pity of our situation, he gave my bunny to my aunt, thus making her, his new owner. I had to agree. Sunny isn't compatible with a grassless condo life with me. He deserve the sun, grass and a family attention, all which my aunt and her family can provide.

He is now happier his new family, which is the best for him. I miss him though. I heard he got new BFFs, a bunch of cats my aunt took care of. He even got a new name, Totoro (my cousin named him that.)

I know you're just a bunny and will never understand this, but you've been a special emotional aid to me all this while.. You heard my woes, saw my tears and laughter, my affections and everything. I'll miss those moments when we would sit together, side by side, on the darkest nights. You would some times run around and nibble me everywhere. I would snuggle you and you would just sit there, snuffling.. And when you're excited, you would run around so fast, then lay under a tree shade when you're tired. That's the cutest! You would get mad after I smothered my face on you until you got uncomfortable. You would just thump you feet so loud! Haha! Annoyed much? These scars you gave me, will always make me remember you by~

There's so much more... But the best is when you would kiss me all over my hands and chin when you missed me... You are such a puppy sometimes..

I miss you Sunny (now Totoro)

You are truly the sunniest part of my life. Thank you for everything. Will visit you soon ok?

my big baby boy~

10 years ago~

Lets see... #throwback

10 years ago eyh?

It was 2004, young lady at 16, secondary 4.

I was a happy goody two shoes girl. But nobody actually knew, I had my first heartbreak this year, when I just knew my 1st crush ever is going to move away to MRSM. Somehow, i knew that it was a mere crush and we would eventually move along separately. But I didn't expect it to be that soon. It wasn't a devastating, heart aching, suicidal heartbreak, in fact it was like a 'meh' thing. It was only one side anyway. We weren't even friends. Just someone I look from a far. *anime scene*

I have also lost a close friend of mine. My partner in crime in drawings. Her drawings were incredibly beautiful, and to compared to mine, it was amateur. But she never fail to praise me and to give me awesome spirit for drawing. We would just doodle away together. But her family moved to Perak and we had to say goodbye. Apart from my crush's transfer, my farewell for her was more saddening. We cried and held each other, saying silly things that she'll meet me again in a helicopter and we fly together to Japan.

Anyway, with that guy gone away, I literally wasn't interested to anyone. It should be a lay back year for me. PMR just ended and SPM is not until next year. The seniors called this period 'The Honeymoon Year'. The teachers really should cut us some slack. LoL. I joined as many clubs as I could, excluding the sports clubs. I was (and still am) never the athletic type anyway. 

Lets see... I've joined, the Karate-Do club, English Society, and Choir. I stayed back after school almost everyday even when there weren't any club activities. Some of my time I would linger around the school blocks, chatting with anyone. Then I would eventually loiter around the school botanical garden. The gardening club would always welcome me around, and I would voluntarily help with the gardening.

At odd times, I would just stay round the school canteen, chatting away with the canteen workers. Sometimes, they would be generous enough to give me free food or drinks (muka tak malu). I would play round with their son in the canteen with bunch of other juniors.

One fine day, a senior prefect called me. Knowing myself, I was determined to keep my school record as clean as I can, so I thought I've gotten into trouble, but I was actually appointed to be a prefect. Oh well, if that's so, that's it. I was glad tho, I didn't get into any trouble, knowing how mischievous my classmates is. LoL.

Speaking of classmates, after the PMR results, I intended to join in the literature class. I know my strength and I was very sure I want this class. The teachers insisted for me to join the economic class, as it suits with my results, but I declined. I mean, come on. Me? Economics? Numbers?? Nah... 

Upon entering the class, I was shocked. Oh hoo.. Now I know why the teachers want me to join other classes. Half of this class is filled with brutal and rather naughty boys. LoL. But after knowing them, no matter how mischievous these troublemakers are, they are very loyal and true. Sure they aren't academical smart, they have ways to show gratitude. Every night, I would tell my sister how my classmates were. She would get so annoyed and eventually ignore me. I mean, how could I not share? They were so comical and sweet at times. One time, one of our classmate had a terrible accident, and half of the class (all of the boys) would skip school to visit. This had gone for a week. Oh! I was also the vice class representative, and my 1st boyfriend was the class representative (coincidence?)

I had my 1st boyfriend in this class, this year. He told me he had admired me from a far since Form 1 (well, oppss.. while I was stalking my crush, he was stalking me). The funny thing is, I knew he was around when we were Form 1, but I literally thought he transferred school or something. I didn't know he was around until we got together in this year's class. Gosh I was so naive and dense! Anyway, he asked if we can be a couple. The problem is, I have never engage this sort of situation and i was dumbfounded. So I said, I'll think about it. For awhile, I sat in a corner, thinking, how does thing 'couple' thing work? I surely read too much of shoujo manga not to understand this, but for it to happen in real life? So, I went back to him and said that I'll give it a try. Not that I have any mutual feelings, but I'll try. There you have it. My 1st couple. But we had a lot to encounter. My lack of emotions and insensitivity always made him upset, and by upset, i meant cry. Gosh I was mean! Then there's the other admirer, which happens to be his own best friend. It was flattering but I was like, 'oh, that make sense. The hair clip, the watch, the cards.'. I just accepts them without any knowledge of whats happening. I just thought he really cares for me as a senior. *face palm*. My 1st relationship didn't last long though. Lasted about 3 months. I just broke it off. There was no mutual feelings and so, I got bored. Him, on the other hand, took it hard and became anti girls for months. Refuse to talk to me, and had this markings on his bag about how he hate girls. But we became friends again eventually, since we need to work together as class representatives.

Students around this age, would eventually select or get selected for a god-brother or sister. Not officially, but just for the sake of company. I, too, had a lot of em. To them, I was the tomboyish baby sister they need to look after, or so they said. So I thought of them as family as well. I don't have an elder brother or sister back home, so I appreciate them more. They would hang out with me at the canteen and accompany me drawing. I would also watch them play basketball in the evening after school.

Around this year too, I had my 1st penpal. We meet on a literal penpal website (i don't remember which site though). I was an internet noob at that time, so we only exchanges emails almost every week. We had similar interest in anime and comics, so we hit off right away. He's from Netherlands and he taught me a lot of things about his culture and country. That was my 1st time knowing someone out of the country other than Singapore. As exciting as it is, he too was excited to meet someone from the asian part of the world.

Those were the days where money, jobs and bills didn't matter. I had a good school life, and I have appreciated it a lot. Never a moment I thought of wanting to grow up fast. I just wanted to stay a school girl as long as I can. To learn to love, make friends, appreciate those little things we thought would last forever. Can say, i was a Blooming 16.. :)

This is my story, 10 years ago. Whats yours?

Pemimpi 2.0 Photo Memories

Pemimpi 2.0

Over the last weekend, I went to a reunion gathering party held by the Pemimpi people (which are ex students of UiTM Graphic Design, Shah Alam). Though, I'm basically an outcast in the group, but majority of the people are my friends i made along the way from Diploma years to Topet's Degree years. 

I thought that, i left graphic designing a long time ago, and the people there knew each other more than me, i should feel left out of the group somehow. How wrong i was. They are all so welcoming and so much fun. I was announced as Topet's fiancee, but they knew better that i'm more than that to them. I knew them before the event, so things were less awkward. I just go with the flow (and also wouldn't wanna waste the fee that my fiancee paid for me, just to see me bored).

So, as soon as we arrived, we were greeted by the early comers (the event was held in Melaka btw, so we had few separated convoys). There was a small pool there, so as soon as the other boys reached, they hopped in straight away! They were like little rascals in the water. Us women, we were setting up with the kitchen and stuff, and we sure were excited to meet one another, especially my 6 month pregnant bestie!!

Dawn came, and the guys set up the barbecue. The smell of marinated chicken filled the area almost instantly! Oh! And Dya, our very own patisserie, she brought over her famous pavlova, brownies and chocolate fondue fountain, along with everything else sweet! We also had homemade ice cream and watermelons, and I was in charge of tomorrow's sandwiches for breakfast. Feels like summer and camping. Feels like youth. Reliving youth all over again.

We had karaoke sessions, with ALOT of cheering! It doesn't matter if you're singing is bad or good, as long as we all had fun, laughing and singing together. Soon, Topet and Eno hosted a guessing game, where we acted out the words and everybody guess it. It was hilarious! They sure had different actions for different things (like dog, king and tree). True enough, my team lost, and we were punished to sing the UiTM song, but who knew, that it would be so epic, everybody starts joining in and soon, started marching, circling the pool. Its too bad we can't held another game after that since everybody was exhausted from excessive cheering and singing, and being thrown in the pool, LOL.

The rest of the night, we just chilled. There were people who sang karaoke. There were people continued eating. There were people playing mini games among themselves. And there's me, lying on the carpet, outdoors, gazing at the stars and moon, feeling the breeze and singing along to Pijan's guitar tunes. It was heavenly. I was so grateful to attend the event. I was grateful to Eno who had thought of this. Everything was peaceful and nice. Wishing that time would somehow slow down just a little bit for us. Oh well....

Next morning, i woke up to make breakfast, only to witness a massacre scene in the living room! LoL! Its the boys. They sure can sleep just anywhere. Not just that, some of them, still have the energy to go swimming! Or tossing people in the pool! Oh well, they need to shower anyway...

Just before we check out, we had our final group shot (wajib)! I was a bit weary, though. So, as soon as we start convoying in Melaka city, I took a nap. I woke up in the middle of the convoy and they were still discussing where to head for lunch. They even accidentally left Pijan at the gas station all alone! Cruel much! But these are the things that jot the dot in our memories.

After lunch, we head to the desert of Klebang, where we had beautiful photo sessions all together. But it was so hot and dry!! The sand were soft and there's some got into my shoes. So i walked bare footed, but it burns!!! But better than having sand in my shoes though. Just after the scorching heat of the dessert, we had COCONUT SHAKES!! It was so heavenly, i had brain freeze! It was extra tasty when we drink with friends all around. As dusk shadowing the land, we decided to head home.

As we were driving home, we had news that 2 of our friend's car broke down and can't start at all. But since we've gone too far from them, we decided to wait for them at the RnR station. There i took a shower in the public toilet. Even after all that fixing, our friend's car still can't seem to be done. The rest decided to stay and help, and they told us to go ahead home rather than wait for them. Feeling helpless, we head home.

As they all say, in all matters, there's a silver lining. The rest had so much fun hanging out in Melaka still until dawn, and i'm really jealous! We should have turned back, just to see what we can help mentally and be a team about it. pfftt!! And Dya cant seem to get enough about rubbing the fun they had to my face... LOL!! Worse come to worse, they manage to solve their problems, and all is home safely..

I had so much fun writing this post, as i reminisce the good times we had. Reality may be harsh, but being a 'dreamer' makes everything possible. Thank you all for giving me the opportunity to feel energetic and positive! And i wish you all a happy life, until we all meet again soon, for Pemimpi 3.0 perhaps?

p.s: i wasn't invited to Pemimpi 1.0 because i was in Puncak and that was meant for AD students. But now, what the heck! ;p

Doubting my hijabster self

Of course, ever since i wore the hijab, i've start missing the days i was wild (sort of) and free (think so) ... I just love the feel of the wind in my hair and decorating my mane with cute clips and ribbons. But now, i'm using the hijab, i sort of miss my bangs.. no doubt! i love the hijab style and all.. but i was uncovered for so long and sometimes, it feels like a hassle, truthfully...

At times, i feel like taking it off and let loose and care less of what others might say. But i made a vow.

Nonetheless, i asked my fiancee, doesn't he missed me without hijab? He said he does. BUT! He preferred me with the hijab on, because it made me look nicer and sweet (awww). Better than before. And knowing him, he doesn't like to share his girl to anyone (and that's why i was scolded when wearing short skirts before, long ago).

Well, despite the guilty feeling of taking my hijab off, those remarks from my fiancee truly lightens me up. So, i'm keeping it on (of course, didn't even plan to take it off in the 1st place). Besides, i'm not at the age of playing and flirting around anymore. I just want to look pretty for him, and i'm glad he's appreciating me like this.. :)

I found myself a very good man to guide my future.

I know, i should be sincere wearing my hijab for Allah.. I AM.. its just that, i'm not immune from syaitan myself, and don't say that you are (fakers). Every changes in life must have a motivator, and mine, fortunately my family, friends and beloved fiancee. Thank you guys.. :)

Dear Allah,

Despite my crude behaviour in life, i am thankful for granting me many people in my life..

I am thankful for my mother, whom gave birth to me.. regardless the distance we have between us, we are never separated in heart. Never lose faith in me, always believe i can achieve many things (even the smallest things counts for her).

I am thankful for my father, always giving me a pathway towards the biggest picture in life. Always giving me the 2nd chance thought i don't deserve. And is always there to help. Sometimes, to teach a child to find, is to play 'Hide and Seek'. Nothing is given in the real world, except to expected to be taken back.

I am thankful for my fiancee, that 1st stranger to accept me as who i am. Always, and ALWAYS there whenever i'm down, whenever i'm at my lowest, most useless state. Knowing how stubborn, how anxious and how thoughtless i can be at most times. Notices the tasteless changes in me. You still stuck a ring on me.

I am thankful for my siblings, who are always my little rays of sunshine. My trouble makers. My migraine enhancements. My mud puddles. Always a grim, never a bore. Those lil baby talk we had, turns to meaningful chats. Everything you guys do, made me reminisce and smile. Never fail.

I am thankful for my best friends, my vitamins in life. Supports me to almost everything i do. Listens and listen good. Never sigh to my woes, never scream to my tantrums. Even after knowing that i'm not they type to contact all the time, never to forget me, as i never forget them, EVER! Always so important, so true.

So, Please dear Allah,

Hear my prayers, for you are the Most Loving and Most Caring, Most Forgiving.

Give love and protection to these love ones of my life. Give support and justice to their soul. Forgive their sins and banish their fears. Purify their heart from evil and stray them from hell fire, for they are precious to me on earth. Amin...

My Eday was PINK?

Yes... It's pink.

For people who know me from long before,

they might be surprised at this. Why?

Because I used to hate pink.

But, thinking that, i want my eday to be sweet looking and cheerful,

That's the color alright. Since I'm not a kid anymore, so I don't hate it (much).

naive, soft, sweet and subtle

everything that's not really me. LoL!

But, it's an Eday. So yeah, granted!

Turns out, the color came out just nice and i love it!

It gave me the feel that i wanted, just in the right amount!

Not so bad at making decisions huh?

And his side?

BLUE!

He said pink won't go well with blue.

pffttt~ really?

Turns out fine to me.

So, at a cliche end..

Pink Woman, Blue Man

nice.. :)

EDay Thanks

Thank to all who helped me manage the ceremony so smoothly and beautifully~
but mostly...

Thank you Ibu Sri
... for the catering.
... for the moral support.
... for traveling from Singapore to Damansara for me. (becoz when she goes back, she hv to work so much OTs)
... for accompanying me shopping for items. (Im just so bad in KL)

Thank you Ayah
... for helping with house cleaning and decorating the dais too.

Thank you Puteri Lily
... for being the most wonderful event manager ever! Decorating the dais and organizing almost everything.
... for letting me rely on you so much!

Thank you Aunty Sarimah and MAC
... for sponsoring the door gift and the cake. Such lovely gifts.

Thank you Aunty Irma
... for helping me with my shopping in KL. Driving us around here and there. (Its just so hectic there.. >.>)

Thank you Pak Ngah and family
... for being the pantun maker, the entertainer and mini organizer for the on going ceremony

Thank you Abg Faizal Rezza
... for sponsoring the photographer. Took beautiful images of the ceremony. I love it!

Thank you UmzarulNadia
... for making me beautiful that day, and at a half price too! You're a wonderful (and talkative) friend indeed. Everybody praised your work. I especially loved it too!

Thank you Paksu Fendi
... for the time u spent to brief us before the ceremony. Helped us a lot and clearly too!

Thank you Aunty Sa'adah and Uncle Ali
... for proposing and accepting me as your son's lover and future bride.

and especially you...

Thank you Taufik Hidayat
... for loving me.

Without everybody here, i can't imagine how the ceremony would turned out like. Im just so bad at event planning... So thank you, THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Im Engaged to the Love of My Life

I woke up early morning in a hotel room. Been sleeping with my mom. I just feel at ease sleeping with her after so long... (what do you expect? Im a grown woman..) I got up and get ready to walk home (hotel was just a walking distance away). We bought breakfast and a few other things.

As reached home, i saw the mini dias, decorated beautifully in the middle of the hall.

'In a few hours, i'll be sitting there. Well, thats nerve wreaking...'

I help some of the house work (including yelling at my siblings. They were making a mess!)

Then, my aunty came... then my friends.. then my make up artist... then the photographer......
As there were more and more visitors were arrived, the more anxious i became. The time must be close! They must be nearby!!

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The ceremony went smoothly (praise Allah) and i was so happy! They were exchanging pantuns and laughter. Smiles all around.

But... I, who was upstairs, waiting for my call to go down...

was twitching and very nervous... 

'howdoiact?howdoismile?whatshouldidofirst?whenshouldidoit?ohgodamisweating??doismellbad?ismyhairgood?ismymakeuptoothick?'

...until my aunty called me down. I insisted that my mom accompany me downstairs, so i grab her wrist! I tried smiling elegantly (act natural, dang it!) until THIS SOMEBODY, WHO WAS LOOKING DIRECTLY AT ME, STARTED GIGGLING MISCHIEVOUSLY! (im talking about you Sal!)

so yeah, i was taken to be seated on the dias, and... urmm... smile??? (sweats)

Luckily, i heard a tiny voice calling me... 'kakput! kakput!'... It was Nana (Topet's sister). She was all smiles and started to wave at me. I was so relieved and delighted. All the tension for nothing. Its a family event. I knew almost everybody in the room, so this me isn't ME. I know they know that very well.

So, the ceremony went on, reciting some Du'a and stuff.. then...

the nerve started to wreak again.... its the 'Sarung Cincin'!!! (where, the future mother in law, wears it for the future bride as a proposal from the future groom)

We were both so awkward, we weren't even smiling right! Yes, WE! Me and Aunty Sa'adah!

As she ring the ring through my ring finger, all emotions waved in together. I was touched, shy, nervous, happy!

The ceremony ending with us all socializing and chatting and eating. It was a delightful day. Glorious!

We have yet to announce the Wedding Date... but soon ok?? 

VERY VERY SOON!

So, when that happens, remember to SAVE THE DATE! 

p.s: don't worry... ayah won't hurt you... that bad... LoL

p.s.s: brace yourself though.

Bestie Marriage Proposal Surprise!

for the 1st time in my life, iv seen a real life marriage proposal.

the sweetest thing ever!!

from our all time lovey dovey couple

Ima&Khalis

Khalis actually made the plans with us to surprise his future wife.

i was so excited, i was afraid that i'd blew our cover.

he got on his knee after a video play in a electronic store,

took out the ring and asked, 'will you marry me?'

omg i just died!!

Ima was flustered, stuttering, blushing!

i feel so happy for her!

she was (and probably still is) smiling all night through.

and Khalis, man was he sweating (out of joy?)

to think,

sweet guys like Khalis give a very bad impression towards the other guys.

and there goes me...

"why cant you be romantic as he is?"
how obnoxious, but hye, one cant help it.. ;p

good going Khalis and congrats guys..

love u both ketat2!!

UiTM 78th Convocation Ceremony

congrats to all of us... we made it to the end... heheh..

thus, our friendship will never end... 

let us embrace what we've learned, taught, studied, 

day and night.. 3 years thru...

thank you ibu sri n ayah for being there for me..

also not forgetting uncle haidil...

i love you guys... <3 p="">

when we were friends..

those funny years when we were bros... ;p

Final Results

right after mr.TH reminded me to inform him of my final results, i received an email...

it was my result... (duhh)

Alhamdulillah.

i manage to pass with good results...

with this, im an official degree graduate!!

woohoo!!

been studying since 1992 till 2012

gosh.. twenty years... 

life is about education, isnt it...?

now, i can look for a job to support self and family..

the eldest got to do what an eldest got to do... ;)

for this, (cliche drum roll)

i wud like to thank family, friends, boyfriend, best friends  those strangers with good will, classmates, teachers, lecturers, and all... <3 br="">





p.s: Masters? not anytime soon.. will be, in syaa allah.. :)
p.s.s: its kinda sad to leave the student life, isnt it?

Life as a Degree Student

Alhamdulillah...
all hustles and bustles as a student has finally ended..
(in syaa allah, if my result turns out well)

im sorta sad (expected) to leave my dear friends in Puncak..
they're the best comical people iv met..
of course, my school and diploma friends are awesome too..
but these guys, they're really, undeniably comical.. (and they said, im the cartoony one)

anyway,
within my 3years of degree in animations..
alot of frustrations and challenges faced me, and i was afraid i fear it alone.
thus, a few gentle and loving friends stood behind me, supporting me all the way..

together, we faced all sorts of challenges,
assignments, tests, exams, death, revival, mockery and discouragements.

thank you guys,
for coming to accompanying me in my room,
for letting me hang over ur house almost all the time,
for lending/giving the sweater,
for giving me the awesome anime collections,
for sharing awesome asgmnts updates and infos,
for sharing cool VFX tutorials,
for trusting in me with your lighter,
for being such a lovely dope,
for helping me with my japanese vocabs,
for letting me sleepover at ur house freQuently,
for giving me moral support when im down,
for your warm loving hugs,
for all ur troll jokes that make me laugh so bad,
for being my irritator and fight buddy,
for bring me to mamak almost evry night,
for being a sweet awkward fellow,
for having such awesome patience with me,
for laughing at my lame jokes,
for sharing hilarious youtube vids,
for sharing new experiences,
for that many lovely things we shared together...

but mainly,
thank you, for being you... :)

and also,
im sorry if,
i made you guys angry and frustrated,
i happened to hit you too hard,
i made you sad and disappointed,
i owe you guys and hvnt paid back (do tell, im very forgetful)
i was stubborn
i was passive in a group project
i was such a a**hole,
i even said anything offensive,
i was being too insensitive,
i made things awkward,
i embarrassed any of you,
i was being too annoying and troll much,
i was such a scumbag,
i made all the things that i shudnt hv done or said towards you guys...

forgive me? :(

the time between 2010 to 2012, those times can nvr be replace by anything in the world,
even when there's an alien invasion, going to suck my memories of you guys for no good reasons,
i'll nvr give em up... for you guys are awesome, stupendous and super AWESOME!!

i love you guys, may we meet again someday and hopefully, you guys will only change physically and maintain your awesomeness.. :)

p.s: you know who you are.. :)

Praise Allah

Thank you... final presentation... done!!

p.s: degree speech coming~

cooking fail

they say, fastest way to a man's heart, is through his stomach... in my case...

Friend #1

you cooked this?? awesome!!

Friend #2

OMG, you'r so creative!!

Friend #3

This is delicious.. even experts cant beat you..

Friend #4

you should be married now, girl!!!

Friend #5

MARRY ME!!

Boyfriend

yeah.. ok...

yeah.. ok...

yeah.. ok...

so, with that respond... im not really sure now... >.>

are my friends all about flattery.. or its him being a derp...

friends

yes,

im the type of person, who'll constantly hv new friends evry year or so~~

but really, it doesnt mean i forget the old ones...

my fault, im not really the one who'll constantly, freQuently call or ask my friends,

how's their daily lives been or what are they up to... 

but really,

as long i know that they're on my love list, hvnt forgotten me yet, im fine...

as long as they'r still saying that im their friend, then, they are...

as long as i know they're there, im ok...

just for you to know,

no matter how long we hvnt converse...

when i get to meet you, you meet me, again....

we will still be, like we've nvr been apart...

its not that i dont care...

im just the type to shut up if i dont anything to talk about...

p.s: FYI, my family and boyfriend is pissing off too, with this particular attitude of mine...

p.s.s: must'v got it from daddy... seriously  >.>

Damn Lazy

Just another chatty dinner night with classmates.

Danial Uzair

Eventho we hv very few classes for this sem, this is the toughest one so far.

Puteri (Me)

wanna know what makes this sem tough?

Danial Uzair

what?

Puteri (Me)

Coz we only have 1 class this sem, so we cant blame "other" classes when we werent able to finish up an asgmnt. we are just too god damn lazy to get up and do it, and the results are still last min work. also, we took too much priority on our side incomes, we forgot our actual asgmnts. true?

Danial Uzair

*Long Pause*

Seem legit.